These past few days I’ve been worrying about having a relapse to how I was when I was really ill. Idk I think it’s because I read some ppls experiences of psychotic episodes a few days ago and it just totally brought back how horrible whatever I went through was? Dang. I never realise stuff triggers me until days afterwards. And I’m scared of it happening again. It was terrifying. Not being able to sleep at all, literally living in a week long panick attack, the hallucinations of seeing myself dead. Terrifying. I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy.